Sunday, April 06, 2003

Self Torture
I hate paying bills - even when I know I have enough money in the bank to cover them all. I just hate the process involved. It wouldn't be so bad if all my online sites were working. Tonight I have 4 bills that can't be paid, becuase the websites were down for who-knows-what-reason. Access denied. You can't go there. Oh, they will let me order new service, increase my monthly bill by changing things, but I am not allowed to pay my existing bill. When I sit down to pay bills, I like to do it all at one time and then I can coast for the rest of the month. Bummer! Now I will have to check again tomorrow to see if I can gain access to the features I need. I despise writing checks and using postage as much or more than I despise paying bills online. So, I procrastinate and prolong doing the inevitable. It's 5:30 in the morning, and instead of just waking, I am finally ready for bed. My eyelids are drooping, my eyes yearn to flicker behind them in a fit of REM sleep, and yet I am so wired from writing checks, clicking the links to my credit cards, and stuffing envelopes - oh don't you know I just love the flavor of that dried gummy glue on the back of envelopes!!!

I'm tired, fatigued, exhausted, weary, and just plain sleepy. Can't you tell?

posted by Mary Brotherton at 4/06/2003 05:33:00 AM